I think last night was the worst night of sleep I’ve ever gotten in my life. Even though I climbed into bed at 10ish, I didn’t fall asleep until midnight… and I woke up at 1:45, wide awake! At around 3, I gave up and grabbed a book to read, hoping it would make me sleepy.
Didn’t work.
Finally, I got out of bed and went for an early-morning run in the dark. The weird thing is that I didn’t feel lethargic or sluggish AT ALL. I kept waiting to crash and burn, but my run was energy-filled, and the adrenaline kept me going for the rest of the day as well. Plus, I got to hang with my Saved by the Bell friends while I made my second breakfast! (I’d turned on the tv to see if there was a World Cup game.)
Above, a Manila mango, a glass of almondmilk, and Chocolate Cream Pie Bulgur Pudding
I have an overwhelming fear of flying. It’s ridiculous, especially considering the number of airplanes I’ve been on in my life (starting at 6 weeks old). The reason for my sleepless night, last night, was that I was wide-awake thinking about tonight’s flight to New York. Normally, I’m wary of taking any sort of medicine (I very rarely even take Tylenol), but before I fly, if I don’t take 1/2 an Ativan, I’ll have what I can only imagine is a panic attack (heart racing, nausea, light-headedness, etc.).
Ah, but the ends justify the means… I’m going to New York!
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Oh no, sorry to hear about your terrible nights sleep! i’m like that every single night, but the only difference is, i AM constantly exhausted! very annoying! it’s weirdd though sometimes i do have more energy if i have only 1/2 hours sleep instead of my usual 3/4 a night! it’s strange..maybe it is because my body doesn’t actually get to the totally deep sleep stage so doesn’t make me feel soooo exhaused when i waken!
i hope you manage the flight with no problems at all. JEALOUS you are going to NY though i must admit! it’ll all be worth it so try not to fret my love xx
your chocolate breakfast just made my fruit breakfast a little sad! have fun in nyc!
I’m afraid of DRIVING in general, so…don’t worry about the flying thing. We all have our fears, and obviously you face yours (and I drive anyways, just not as often as most and I don’t take freeways…)
Hi Katie! I’ve been reading for a while but have never commented. I’m getting caught up after not checking in for several days and I think the changes to the blog will be great! I, too, tend to worry too much about other people. It’s great to consider others, but we must be real and true to ourselves! And just so you know, those of us, your smart (for lack of a better word) readers, know that you are healthy by your beautiful glow, beautiful hair, beautiful teeth, … I think you’re awesome!
Hi Lori!! So nice to “meet” you 🙂 :). And thanks for the sweet comment!
Katie –yes, I live here! 🙂
I’m scared to fly too … so much so that I managed to avoid airplanes until a couple years ago when my company made me fly to Chicago for a conference. I begged them to put me on a train (one goes straight from Memphis to Chicago), but they said the airline offered a better deal. So I flew. And it wasn’t as bad as I’d thought….so I flew again in January to a conference in San Franciso. The large airplane to get there wasn’t so bad, but I had to ride on a tiny plane to get to my layover in Salt Lake on the way back…I thought I was going to die! I had to order wine, and then I was a little better. Thank god for alcohol and pills, right?
Im the same way on flights, I actually did have a panic attack on a few flights..it’s the worst…I hate not being able to go places though so I go on them anyway..SIGH..
What is it that you take? Maybe I can ask my doctor about it and it would help for me next time I fly?
So jealous your going to NY 😛
Dana xo
http://happinessiswithin.wordpress.com/
Dana,
It’s called Ativan. It just calms you down and makes you sleepy. Trust me, I would NEVER be able to sleep on a plane otherwise! I’m still scared, but it drastically reduces the amount of anxiety and the “can’t breathe” feeling.
I have a fear of flying too, and I get panic attacks sometimes. I haven’t been on a plane in a pretty long time, but I used to take ativan for my panic attacks (not just for flying but any time throughout the day when I would get unexpected panic attacks, or general anxiety). I’ve recently stopped taking it quite so frequently, since I’m trying to ween off of all prescription drugs (benzos are the last to go) but honestly, I still take it if I really need it…and I don’t think it is that big of a deal. I honestly don’t know how I would function sometimes without it because my anxiety and panic attacks would interfere with my daily life. I don’t like being dependent on it, but for now, it works for me. I think taking 1/2 a pill before a flight is really no big deal, especially if it allows you to get some sleep and go to NEW YORK! I wish I could come too! Have a good flight and an amazing trip!
Hi Katie!!
Just wanted to say Hi!!
I have been following your blog for some time now…and just recently decided to start onw of my own!! Your an inspiration 😉
I would love for you to check it out at some point (although Im still learning all the “technical stuff”)
Have an amazing time in New York!! I LOVE that city…lived there for about a year and a half and travel back for work on occasion.
Safe travels
xoxo
Sarah
I used to get sick EVERY time I flew. And that’s at least 6 times a year. It wasn’t until a few flights ago I had to go without my usual pepto-bismal overload but ever since then I’ve been fine. You’re ganna have so much fun in NYC! Just think about that during the flight! 😀
You are one committed runner 🙂 Before 6? DANNGGG!
<3 jess
xoxo
Aw, I’m sorry you didn’t sleep well! I’m not a huge fan of flying either but I’ve been on so many airplanes that I’m sort of immune to it now. But you’re going to NYC!! Sounds like fun 😀
Oh, and the vegan cinnamon rolls came from Veganomicon (except they’re called the maple brown sugar pinwheels). I glossed over that recipe many times because it was called a “pinwheel” and not a “cinnamon roll!”
I haven’t been on a plane since I was little, so I’m sure the next time I’ll have overwhelming anxiety, too!! Good luck, I’m sure it will be fine. 🙂
Jenn
Try not to stress and enjoy the flight! 🙂
And welcome to my territory 😉 NYC is the best in the summer!
Have a blast!
Hi katie!!
I have a HUGE fear of flying! I have nightmares for weeks before I fly…ugh! I try not to let it take over though, or I’ll get to miss out on so much in life! One thing that has helped me ( a bit) is reading and learning as much as I can about how planes fly, why they fly, the training the pilots take, what’s going on in the cockpit etc…I feel the more I know about all the operations of the plane and the feelings of flying and what to expect makes me a little more at ease because I can rationalize with myself…there’s tons of information online. It’s worth a shot!
Have a fun trip!!!
have fun on your trip!!! just brniog some good magazines, some music and zone out! it will FLY by!